idontthinkyourealisehowcooliam

Watch out you might get what you're after
Cool babies strange but not a stranger
I'm an ordinary guy
Burning down the house

Hold tight wait till the party's over
Hold tight We're in for nasty weather
There has got to be a way
Burning down the house

Here's your ticket pack your bag: time for jumpin' overboard
The transportation is here
Close enough but not too far, maybe you know where you are
Fightin' fire with fire

All wet hey you might need a raincoat
Shape down Dreams walking in broad daylight
Three hun-dred six-ty five de-grees
Burning down the house

It was once upon a place sometimes I listen to myself
Gonna come in first place
People on their way to work baby what did you except
Gonna burst into flame

My house S'out of the ordinary
That's right Don't want to hurt nobody
Some things sure can sweep me off my feet
Burning down the house

No visible means of support and you have not seen nothing yet
Everything's stuck together
I don't know what you expect staring into your TV set
Fighting fire with fire..


best song ever, right now. i love it like i love jc chasez. MORE even!!

s.

new el jay....

"__uneamant"

add it....love it.

thanks!!

xx.

s.

well, not really. but anywho!

interesting times. NYE was okay.....got a lil drunk.....pashed the andrew.....saw a fight happen.

other than that....pretty dull night. shuda gawn to the citae. hotness ensured there.

i figured out my plan for my birthday. it involves: the fam, the cuckoo, the jess and the andy. OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FREAKIN YEAH!

im bored...........Queer As Folk is on soooon. must prepare.

s.

01. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before? hahahahahahah! so many things it would boggle the mind to name them all.

02. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year? didnt make any last year. probly will this year. dont know wat they'll be.

03. Did anyone close to you give birth? not anyone i know personally.

04. Did anyone close to you die? roberto's grandfather.

05. What countries did you visit? NONE! this sucks!!!!

06. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004? love.

07. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? not really specific...but early august. thats wen i started my manuscript.

08. What was your biggest achievement of the year? not giving up on my manuscript. coz i usually do.

09. What was your biggest failure? losing friends. or friend. im not sure.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? occasional coughs, nothing serious.

11. What was the best thing you bought? love. hahhhahaa! i am just AWFUL! probly...BDO ticket. coz its gonna go OFF!!!!! YEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

12. 3 Favourite Bands of the year? death cab for cutie, the killers, the cops!!!

13. 3 Favourite cd's of the year? how to dismatle an atomic bomb, queer as folk soundtrack, vice cd

14. Where did most of your money go? cds, movies, food, xmas presents

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? the BDO. and i still am.

16. What song will always remind you of 2004? rectify and gaybar.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? happier.
ii. thinner or fatter? both!
iii. richer or poorer? waaay poorer. as in zero.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of? boys. hahahahaha! go me. seriously. just kidding. fo real tho. *ahem* ooh, and drinking. everyone loves drinking. except recovering alcoholics. but i wont go into that.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of? eating candy. yummy badness.

20. How will you be spending Christmas? too late.

21. What LJ users did you meet? uhh....none i think.

22. Did you fall in love in 2004? yeah.

23. How many one-night stands? zero. dammit. jk.

24. What was your favorite TV program? alias.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? "dislike" is a better way to put it.

26. What was the best book you read? the vampire armand by anne rice.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery? electro. jizzfest music to the max. love it love it. kicks emo's ass.

28. What did you want and get? truth.

29. What did you want and not get? an ipod. LAME.

30. What was your favorite film of this year? super troopers, even tho its older than this year. but i saw it for the first time this year, and its still hilariously cool.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? 15. andy came over. family crap. shit bday. i hate my birthdays.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? simplicity.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004? if it looks good, it probably is good.

34. Did you get any piercings in 2004? no. fucking lame.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? david anders.

36. What political issue stirred you the most? unfair trade. fuck you gwb.

37. Who did you miss? my dad. so much it hurt and for a short while i thought i'd never stop crying.

38. Who was the best new person you met? emo mikey, COREY, hot offyatree guy, ryan, jon.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004: people change.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: "it doesnt really matter where it all began"..."it feels so good just letting go"

hahahaah! i am still obsessing over that alec baldwin skit on saturday night live. i keep doing the hand movements and bursting out laughing. good stuff.

today i finally got a new pad of paper for my epic manuscript. its going swimmingly!! i spent ten minutes getting over excited because i just air-tight sealed a previously confusing and plotholed storyline. go me!! maaan, so many plotholes. but theyr filled, so time to crack open a bottle of Wild Turkey.

which reminds me, i went snooping today. i found a bottle of Tia Maria. yeah, i know, rad. we could eat timtams and drink tia maria. it'd be chocolate-y drunkness. fun.

got a new skirt today. its a black mini. pleated and sexy.like.a.twentysomething.hot.tradie.with.no.shirt.on.

ooooooooohhhhhhhhhh yeah. i said it.

well.........me go now. busy.

s.

hahahah! three uber hot guys in one day!! i.e. hot starbucks guy serviced me (he he he), hot off ya tree guy (had eye contact while walking past) and Ryan (*droooooool*).

awesome! plus mumsy bought me shiny new things.

i got new sunnies, HUUUGE ones...black n white frame...theyr radlikewo.

and a new bag...weird brown colour with pink cartoons all over.

HOT HOT HOT!! ugh, just ate pizza.....feel sick.

hot people rule. so therefore...I RULE!!! Hahahahahahahahah! you've just been BUUUUURRRRNNNNEEEEDDDDDD!!!!


alec baldwin is so hot right now...u know jess (in mugatu voice)

hahahh! im listening to darren hayes...sooooo rad!!

me gonna make a new email for '05. i pretty much change every year, ha! gimme awesome suggestions...

so far i got..
-radlikewo__
-je_suisradcore
-idonthinkyourealisehowcooliam
-pseudomorph_ (meaning "false state")

well thats all i got for now.....also.....wanted to use the word "intrepid" somehow. -meaning "fearless".

s.

wow...pretty sick couple of days.

xmas eve... was my aunt's bday. spent it the rotunda in mordy. drank five glasses of chardonnay and one of shiraz with steph and kirstin. didnt really feel the booze. left there at like 4:30 to go to andy's house. partayed with his fam (parentals, bros, uncle, cuz'). drank no booze. i got prezzies from andy, his ma and his gran...
-red curtain trilogy on dvd
-gold earrings
-l'oreal lip glosses

xmas day... woke up at like 9 to bing crosby's christmas cd playing REALLY loud on the dvd player. i love bing crosby, he was radlikewo. unwrapped prezzies from immediate fam...
-the godfather part one on dvd
-purrdy black braclet
-pink w/ yellow spots tank and undies
-$30
-Tasmania ticket

then we went to church with tante, grandmere, gus and james. after church, washed my hair and mumsy dried/straightened it to the max. thennnn, got all purdy-d up to go to grandmere's for xmas dinner.
from her i got...
-the passion on dvd
-hot sox

before din dins, got more prezzies from the "septic tanks" (yanks - that one's curtosy of Pa! love u!!). i got...
-tommy hilfiger messenger bag
-liz claiborne braclet
-photoframe with a pic of steph in it

THEN!!! i got more from tonto mario, santina and roberto...
-david jones summer pack

drank four glasses of chardonnay. we had a HUGE dinner with all the fam. soooooooo full after. played shithead outside with gina and cuzns for a while. went for a walk home to get milk for grandmere...felt the booze a lil. came back, watched zoolander. went home at like midnight app.

fun time.

today... fabrice and laurent came over = LAMENESS TO THE MAX. did nothing all day. rested. took photos of myself. haha! i rock.

see you all in 2005. (unless i update before then...meh!)

s.

this whole shinnanigan began because of one entry. an entry that explained an issue how i saw it, how i felt about it. yes, it painted a certain someone badly...but thats because the person deserved it. i didnt go out of my way to call her names and accuse her of stupid things (i.e. like the person did back to me in retaliation).

its not easy to see oneself badly. its not easy to believe that it really wasnt about you. but it wasnt. if you cant trust that, then thats ur issue. i have nothing more to say on the issue of that first entry. but i never had that person in mind when i wrote it... dispite how i refered to her by name. it was something that i had needed to do for a long time. the hurt was raw for most of the year. you cant do that to someone and not expect some sort of venting.

i dont care if u dont want my forgiveness...coz its there...and it will never go away. no matter wat you do. "we were never friends"? then why did you hang out with us for four years? interesting. CAZZA, i am not your friend anymore. i never will be from now on. im not angry and speaking from impulse. ive thought about this thouroughly (a gift you do not possess) and i will not be your friend any longer. you dont deserve my undying friendship anymore. you are the most two-faced person i have ever known. but i will be civil next year, i will speak to in a friendly manner when necessary. but its too late for anything more. and thats YOUR loss. not mine.

i wonder how many hours it took you to write bad things about me. it took me half an hour to write that first entry...and i spoke from the heart. yes, you were insulted. you were insulted by the truth. the only reason u are being defended is because none of the group has asked for our side of what happened. you ran to them first and forever ruined that hope. people often forget that there is never a final story. its called being DIPLOMATIC.

did it make you feel good to leave two people who considered you a friend for app. four years? i wouldnt be surprised. and thats sad.

my beef is with you, CAZZA. not with caitlin, clare or steph. guys, dont express your defence of her through this medium...you dont have a clue about what jess and i went through.

btw - caity, clare, steph - i still consider you friends. and i hope you still consider me that way too. i humble myself and ask for an apology for my part in the accusation at caity's party and everything else i may have said. i understand the circumstance now. as long as you understand that from the outside looking in, it didnt look good. i am sorry.
im also sorry for being such a bitch to you, steph. your version of an attack was unexpected and no i didnt expect you to be so bitchy, for many reasons. i have made the first step for reconciliation. i am sorry.

its christmas. a time for people to love one another in honour of the birth of the Lord. there is no greater gift we can give Him than for us to forgive and love.
and if you wont honouor that now, there is no hope.

Merry Christmas.

s.

well this is just getting more and more hilarious.

woop-di-fucking-doo if we were in the spa alone together. thats because everyone else LEFT the spa / didnt WANT to go in. we didnt "inconspicuously" end up there. i wanted to indulge in a luxury i dont often get to experience. its that fucking simple.

caz, who are you to judge my relationship with my cousins? I KNOW THEM VERY WELL, THANKYOU!!!!!! well enough to know that they are DOOSHBAGS and also AMERICAN ones at that. and why do i say "american"? lets see: bcoz they are AMERICAN CITIZENS. so that, it would seem, make them indeed...american. 
they lived near me until i was 8 and ive seen them many more times since then. so dont fucking presume to know about my family. you crossed a line right there, bitch. you can insult me all you want, but u stay the FUCK AWAY FROM MY FAMILY. they are none of your fucking business. u are so lucky this isnt in person, bcoz i am so fucking pissed right now that i'd square you right in the fucking face. no one fucks with my family. no one!oooooooh! u MET some americans?? ive been to AMERICA! for two months! i spent two months there, and it was CRAP! ive enver met more annoying people! take that u presumtuous fuck! so excuse me for talking about shit that i actually know about.

bullshit u tried to slip away. wat the fuck was that huge jess-saabi bashing blurty entry about then??? slip away quietly my fucking ASS.

does anyone remember the core of Catholicism?? FORGIVENESS AND LOVE, you stupid people!!! i follow Jesus' two commandments. 1. love you neighbour (not just your neighbour, but you enemy as well), 2. love God. done! thats a lot more than wat some of u do. but i wont go on, i hate that kind of pride.

even after all of this is done, i'll love all of you. i always will. i can never let go of that. thats why it was so hard watching caz leave.

well, im off...

s.

wow. did anyone else read cazza's blurty? sheesh...a lotta harsh words in there. mostly because SHE DIDNT UNDERSTAND THE CONTEXT IN WHICH MY ENTRY WAS WRITTEN!!!!

which, u know...wasnt that hard to decipher.

basically...wat i was saying was about ME. about my opinion, how i saw things, how i felt about them and how i wish they hadnt happen. i have every fucking right to voice my opinion!!
and i hope anyone who questions that right (i.e. Steph Tonkin) burns in hell. steph, u had no right to say "i know ur only expressing ur opinion but if u r culd ur opinions please be the slight bit correct! instead of a load of made up bull shit!" first of all, where do u get off asking ANYONE, EVER to change thier opinions for you and second of all, its not made up u blind fuck!

now, i wasnt planning on aiming a literary gun at anyone, but now its aimed squarely at you. are you happy? u've served no one any good texting me. well done, steph. you've add more shit to the fan that hardly concerned you in the first place. jess and ema heard ur whispering. we know u were talking about jess and llewyn and the cheating thing. why cant u accept different ideals? are they so threatening to ur own?? oh, and yes, cazza you do "exclude, or bag eachothers opinion". everyone does...u are no special to the rest of the 16 year old girls in the world.

in reply to cazza's entry...

i can distinctly remember many times involving phone conversations with you, and even many three ways with jesso aswell. so dont say "u never rang me on the weekend". bcoz i can seriously remember doing so. how do u think i memorised ur phone number???
and "not catholic"? why?? because i "smoke, drink, have premarital sex". uhh...smoking and drinking arent sins. there are a lot of very important Catholic figures that smoke, like Cardinal Dino Monduzzi...number two after our Holy Pope. refresh my memory...isnt it wine that they use during THE EUCHARIST??? did JESUS CHRIST drink wine? i think so. and i chose not to follow some of the CHURCH's beliefs...thats like me calling everyone who supports gay marriage not catholic. thats how fucked up and insane that comment was. "u hardly seem like the kind of friend jesus would have".......wow...considering Jesus befriended prostitutes, tax collecters and oppressive Romans, theres no way he'd be friends with a 16 year old girl who considers Him her savior. and who are you to lecture me about catholicism?? u dont even believe in God!! u dont even want to be in this religion!!! so why do u get to say that to me?? ur just trying to fill up word space. and the eavesdropping thing?? we didnt even make it to the door u tool. we already had a good idea about wat was going on via all the other shit.

since when do i act "all high and mighty, as if were inferior, and not as smart as u "??? where the fuck did that come from? that seems like an awfully lame insult not even worth commenting on because its such a farce. c'mon then...gimme one time, just ONE where i acted like that.

you can take back all the "sorrys" u ever said, because they were never genuine anyway. i still forgive u anyway. im glad ur happy with them, i wouldnt want anything else. but does that mean you have to turn around and be so hateful towards that? u couldve just slipped away but no, u just couldnt resist trying to turn everyone else away.

and u know wat? they'll do it to you aswell. its inevitable. they've lost five friends doing this. its the same cycle every time. as soon as u start to change or question something theyr doing...it'll be the end. you know it. u'll deny it now but u'll see.

s.

last time i tell you guy's anything.
probably the last time i'll get to be with all you guys at once, so thanks for the memories.
& please don't insult my intelligence by "going to the toilet" & "i'll go with" & "i'll check what they're doing"
i thought we moved past that routine sometime early this year.
it really is sad that i'm used to this by now.
not that i'm saying it doesn't hurt anymore, ofcourse it does.
i hope while you were downstairs & whispering to one another you justified your reasons for doing something so selfish & mean.
i don't need juvenille whispering & bitching right infront of my face everytime i'm with you.
if someone can tell me what i've done to them to make them feel the need to drive a knife right through my fucking back, go ahead & let me know.
thanks guys.

you know what breeds presumtions like that? seeing it done by the same people to others.

For a while ive felt quite unsure about a lot of things...but they've always turned out. but the group...theres always an uncertainness. i feel that i lost a close friend this year...caz. once... her, jess and i were The Trio. everything was done together. we helped each other through everything. we knew things about each other that no one else knew. and then it seems after i was away for a week, told only jess something that i couldnt handle everyone knowing at once...'everything' fell apart. jess and i were accused of some horrible things. and to make it worse, they were broadcast over the internet and the rest of the group turned away for a little while.

i was never angry, i was ready to forgive from the first time i read those things. i left my heart open, waiting for our Prodigal Friend to return. but she never really did. 'sorry's were said, hugs were given. but it was always a wound that would never go away, no matter how much time went by. oh, im not bitter, dont ever think that, it just hurt... a lot. she then went on to hang out with clare and caity...spending less and less time with us...and forgetting that we were there for her in the beginning.

thats the worst thing i guess...being forgotten. she calls them her "best friends"... so thats it? our titles have been revoked. we are no longer the best friend of one of our best friends. esp in the shoutouts....all sentimental...except jess' and mine. i tried not to read into it too much....but its painfully obvious. god, i hate writing this. but i need ventilation...or i'll explode. and not in the glitter-explosions-at-the-last-Cher-concert way. so for the rest of the year we watched caz stop sitting with us, stop going out with us, occasionally stop talking to us and stop seeing us the way we saw her.

and then, the group itself has changed. i think, because jess was leaving... it resulted in unpleasantness towards her. i hate having to defend my best friend to my other friends. that just shouldnt be done. oh, and even if no one else remembers it...i sure as shit do. i remember all the times. and if u ask me, "oh yeah, wat were they??" you'll just end up sounding like a fuckface. and it seems we have an issue with accepting different opinions...i can remember a time wen i was the first to voice my anti-america feelings and then behind my back i was called "ignorant". behind my back. and yet, jess and i were the most informed than any of you. aaaand theeeen! a few months later, after much more anti-america media, suddenly everyone agrees.

thats not the only time youve had trouble accepting peoples choices. how about jess' choice to go? sure, i was sceptical...but if its gonna do her LIFE good, why the fuck shouldnt she go? there are so many more....but im about to go watch a movie so i'll keep this brief. (yeah, coz its not monstrously long or anything) i'll be truthful... im afraid of the backlash. but i also welcome it. im afraid that it'll cause a rift and im not usually one to cause a rift. but i welcome it because ive needed to say these things for a long while.

my heart hurts. i dont know who i'll click with next year.

i love all of you, nothing you do will change that. there is no hate, only pain. and perhaps not even that.

s.

pe es. wat am i gonna do without u jess? ive never had a better companion. never in my life. and i doubt i ever will. we must make a great ninja warrior pack to be together forever.

 

 

how adorable are we...


just the cutest. i love the pancake parlour. so much sugarrrr!! ooh yeah!

love sabrina xx

possibly the best show ever!! Queer as Folk rocks my homoerotic socks!!!
its like sex in the city but with gay relationships and the main characters arent ditzy fuckfaces. gawd, i love it. i love it AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!

i just bought the season four soundtrack, its so fucking rad. and it came with a picture book of the characters. there's the HOTTEST photo of justin and brian....ooooh baby. theyr on fire like delta goodrem's piano!!

BEST SHOW EVER!!!

love sabrina, xx.

ps. i love Bono!! (in a non sexual way)

LAYER ONE:
-- Name: Sabrina Louise Bednarski
-- Birthplace: Dandenong, VIC
-- Gender: female
-- Eye Color: blue
-- Hair Color: black
-- Height: uh...tall!
-- Righty or Lefty: righty
-- Zodiac Sign: Aquarius

LAYER TWO:
-- Your heritage: Polish and Mauritian
-- The shoes you wore today: my old converse sneakers. (that i will burn once i get new sneakers)
-- Your fear: hell
-- Your perfect pizza: ice cream!
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: dance on broadway

LAYER THREE:
-- Your thoughts first waking up: noooo! sooooo tired!!
-- Your best physical feature: my BOOBS!!
-- Your bedtime: nowadays...uhh...11pm
-- Your most missed memory: seeing my dad

LAYER FOUR:
-- Pepsi or Coke: Coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: maccas
-- Single or group dates: Single
-- Independent or Nike: Independent (but only coz its not nike)
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton
-- Chocolate or vanilla: Choc
-- Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino

LAYER FIVE:
-- Smoke: lil' bit
-- Cuss: Fuck yeah
-- Sing: when im in the shower, u bet ur ass
--Take a shower everyday: for sure
-- Have a crush: nope
-- Do you think you've been in love: yes! am right now
-- Want to go to uni: sure thing
-- Liked high school: better than being a hick
-- Want to get married: yup
-- Believe in yourself: YEAH! GO ME!
-- Get motion sickness: nope
-- Do you think you're attractive: not bad
-- Think you're a health freak: NUH!
-- Get along with your parent(s): mostly
-- Like thunderstorms: yeah! crazy and scary.
-- Play an instrument: no :(....

LAYER SIX:
In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: YESSSSSSSSSS
-- Smoked: yesum
-- Done a drug: no
-- Had Sex: no! we ran out of time!!
-- Made Out: oohhh yeah
-- Gone on a date: with ANDY!
-- Gone to the mall?: YEAH
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no, sadly.
-- Eaten sushi: nope
-- Been on stage: no
-- Been dumped: no
-- Cooked anything: yes! i made pancakes!
-- Gone skinny dipping: no
-- Dyed your hair: no. that was a few months ago
-- Stolen anything: yeah...wait no. it was free.

LAYER SEVEN:
Ever...
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: not really
-- Been caught "doing something": haha...yeah!!
-- Been called a tease: nooo
-- Gotten beaten up: nuh
-- Shoplifted: not for a long time
-- Changed who you were to fit in: not consciously

LAYER EIGHT:
-- Age you hope to be married: 22 plus
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 2, Jakob and Isabel
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: in a church.
-- How do you want to die: without fear.
-- Where you want to go to college: ACU
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: Historian or History / Religion teacher
-- What country would you most like to visit: France

LAYER NINE:
In a guy/girl..
-- Best eye color? Blue
-- hair color? not red. sorry caz.
-- Short or long hair: short
-- Height: taller than me
-- Best weight: not overly obese...like a certain walshy.
-- Best article of clothing: aww crap, i dont know... band shirts. always hot. unless they're Milli Vanilli

LAYER TEN:
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: none
-- Number of piercings: ears. thats all. how lame am i?
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: once, wen i was born =D
-- Number of scars on my body: some. too lazy to count
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: you gotta, stop living in the past! contemporise....MAN!

zoinks! me so glad skools ending this week. hols gonna be rad.

stoopid american cousins are coming on Dec 18. im gonna fill my room with anti america stuff, just to freak 'em out. it'll be tres amusement. my cuz stephanie is bringing a friend. a full blooded american dooshbag!! eh, i'll deal. it'll be...interesting.

omg! ma better get me a BIG DAY OUT ticket for the xmas!! or i'll plotz myself!! fo shizzle.

ooh! here's a new exerpt from my bella novella....BEWARE....its the most homoerotic scene ive ever written!! ps. the character whos point of view this is written is a male named Aloin (Alwa). Andrieu (Andrew) is taking care of Aloin while he learns to be a nobleman in 15th century France.

 Andrieu sat closely to me and a look of such sadness captured his visage. Many times he seemed about to speak, but would close his eyes, as if choosing to converse inside his mind rather than with me. I stared at him, my eyes trying to read those troubled expressions he displayed.

 

He then looked nervously at me. Then suddenly his lips were upon mine. My entire body paused. I relished the warmth and softness of him. His hand touched my lower back, sending waves of arousal up my spine. He pulled away. Embarrassed at himself. Standing from my bed he began to move nervously towards the door.

‘I’m so sorry.’ He bleated, his face a twist of emotions. He practically ran out of the room. Leaving me sitting stunned, my heart pounding in my chest. My eyes stared out in front of me as I pondered on what had just happened.

 

I never forgot that moment; it stayed clear as glass in my mind forever. I knew then that Andrieu was indeed attracted to me, as I was to him. Oh, but it was not simply the lustful attraction so common of men my age. It was a lot more. It was as if I only ever had half a soul inside my heart and Andrieu filled that half to make it a whole. The smooth sound of his voice, the stretch of his smile, the smell of his clothes and body – all things, to this day, I have never forgotten. But now that half, without Andrieu, has been reduced to something monstrous. I no longer feel worthy of a soul. The things I’ve done are enough to eternally damn a mortal man five times over. Why should I have the privilege of possessing such a thing as a soul?

ive only typed up 18 pages. thats shocking, compared to how many ive got ready to be typed.

"get down on it, get down on it!" sorry, peter andre outburst.

*ahem*

love sabrina, xx.

i was scrolling thru the bible this arvo. looking for some quotes on the supreme radness of God.

here they is...

Exodus 3:14, "God said, ' I Am who I Am. You must tell them: The one who is called I AM has sent me to you."

Zechariah 9:9-10, " Rejoice, rejoice, people of Zion! Shout for joy, you people of Jerusalem! Look, your King is coming to you! He comes triumphant and victorious, but humble and riding on a donkey - on a colt, the foal of a donkey."

John 8:28, "So He [Jesus] said to them, ' When you lift up the Son of Man, you will know that I Am Who I Am; then you will know that I do nothing on my own authority, but I say only what the Father has instructed me to say.

John 19:30, " Jesus drank the wine and said, 'It Is Finished!' "

Luke 23:46, "Jesus cried out in a loud voice, 'Father! In your hands I place my spirit!' He said this and died."

Mark 15:34, "At 3 o'clock  Jesus cried out, ' Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachthani?' which means, 'My God, my God, why did you abandon me?'"

 

i'm such a legend. i really am.

love sabrina. xx.

on a lighter note....check this out...its pretty much self explanatory...


OH! the hilarity!! im gonna make commentary on a lot more photos. mwah ha ha!!! im so radical.

ahhhH! importants dates for me...which you should know about to quiz me on...and coz i feel like writing them down.

NOVEMBER...
17 - english, math exams
19 - no school
24 - french exam
30 - end of classes
DECEMBER...
3 - school's out 2004!!!
5 - jesso's party
7 - melb zoo with carla, kylie, marnz, laura and kelly
8 - yr10-11 interviews
11 - caity's party


im superpsyched!!! tomorrow night, andy's taking me to the Bridge Hotel for dinner. SOOOO CUTE!! ahhh! i love that munchkin.

coil, sabrina. xx.

"oh baby, oh yeeaah, oh baby" - mayor quimby

So you wanna be a rockstar
Keep it going, don't stop
Work it while you're on top, call the cops

Rollercoaster riding, baby
Up and down
I love to watch you do it

I just want to get close to you
Find out what it takes to move you

Feel the rhythm, hit the spot, getting hot
All night long

All day long I dream about sex
And all night long I think about sex
And all the time I think about sex with you, with you
All day long I dream about sex
And all night long I think about sex
And all the time I think about sex with you, with you

Keep in mind, I'm a love machine
Get it twenty four seven, call me any time you need
Some extra attention, did I forget to mention
School's back in session, get ready for a lesson

I just want to feel alive
And do what it takes to satisfy you

Hour after hour baby
All night long with you

All day long I dream about sex
And all night long I think about sex
And all the time I think about sex with you, with you
All day long I dream about sex
And all night long I think about sex
And all the time I think about sex with you, with you

All day long I dream about sex
And all night long I think about sex
And all the time I think about sex with you, with you
All day long I dream about sex
And all night long I think about sex
And all the time I think about sex with you, with you

All day long I dream about sex
And all night long I think about sex
And all the time I think about sex with you, with you
All day long I dream about sex
And all night long I think about sex
And all the time I think about sex with you, with you

All day long I dream about sex
And all night long I think about sex
And all the time I think about sex with you, with you
All day long I dream about sex
And all night long I think about sex
And all the time I think about sex with you, with you


that song is dedicated to pretty much all of my friends, with many exceptions. oh baby.

MEEEEE OW!

love sabrina xx

im in french..yippee hooraY! we're playing games on some language site. its so rigged. i got 10/10 but the percentage i got was 80! WHAT THE FUCKEDY??

im so super psyched for the weekend!

SATURDAY: NIGHT, go to jesso's / stay over / get drunk with her and clare
SUNDAY: DAY, go see Yidcore/NoIdea at missing link / possibly go trickortreating somewheres
MONDAY / TUESDAY: NIGHT, movie marathon!! / bum around after / sleep at jesso's house!

PAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTYYYYYYYYY!!!
YEAH! YEAH!!!

love sabrina xx

pe es: laura was here. "yay, woop woop woop!" - laura

first of all..
"ooh. it looks like a coyote, the king of the jungle!" - TJ, 'Deuce Bigalow Male Gigalo'

oh the hilarity!!

anyway!! i dyed my hair...BLACK!! MWAH HA HA!! im so super psyched! it looks frickedy rad!

so today...went to sean's place with jesso. he's rad now. coz he wasnt before, HAHAHHAHAH! we got bored and went to jesso's where we drank Jack Daniels and Coke, ate Dove Chocolate and Chocolate Ice Cream while watching Deuce Bigalow. it was awesomeundo.

i had mondo fun. AND! i cant wait to wear my new skirt!! its black and white and knee length, but in the cool way. yes, there is a cool way. u better believe it. woo!
yesterday i got the eskimo joe album...its so cool! i heart it so.

love sabrina, xx.